Ramblings of a Hungry Kid...

So, as most of you know I am doing this thing called The Daniel Fast...

Don't worry, this is the type of fasting you can talk about.

The past three days have been a real struggle both physically and mentally. But as life normally is, it has not been short on blessings.

I'm starting to realize, that things like food are just things of instant gratification. Like "ooh, that piece of cake looks good, I think I'll have one..." and BOOM! Desire fulfilled. But how many other things in our lives can we apply that to? Almost everything. The world today is filled with what I like to call "on demand" things. We have the internet, which can find what we are looking for almost instantly, we have fast food restaurants that give us food (almost) instantly, for goodness sakes, we have on- demand television. But as helpful and nice as it all is, it cheats us out of different gifts...like the gift of patience.

I can't lie, a struggle I have had recently is my single status. No matter how hard I pray, no matter how good I feel about where I am in life, I feel like I'm getting nothing. Like the big guy can't hear me. Then I think, well is what I'm asking for absurd? No...I don't think so. I mean, it is said that God knows the desires of your heart...and ask and it will be given to you...but why isn't anything happening? Why do I pray for contentment, when I do not receive it? But then it is pointed out to me, that I'm praying for the wrong thing...I need to pray for patience.

Patience and I...we aren't too great of friends. If I could, I would totally ask God for a written out plan for my life...but things don't work like that, now do they? I'm so used to getting what I ask for almost instantly, and now...I feel like I am entitled to insta-man! As nice as that would be, I have to come to terms that maybe what I am waiting for is just around the corner- and I just need to be patient and wait just a little longer. I realized, that I am content. I have amazing friends, an amazing family...my life, it is good. If this is my biggest complaint to God...then really, I have nothing to begrudge at all. There is more to this world than me. I should be more worried about the starving, hurting, and homeless. I should concentrate more on others than myself, and one day- when I least expect it- something amazing will happen.

So as lame as I feel about this...there it is guys. We all have struggles- and this is mine. I'm on day 3 of the fast, and well- I'm excited to see what God has in store.

But one thing I have realized, is that in this instant gratification thing, my valentines day has been instantly fixed, I'll spend it loving others, and the One that loves me the most. (I think we all know who that is....and if you don't it starts with a G and ends with od. Just if you were wondering...) Sorry to be so corny, but it is the truth. BTW- I AM SOOOO STILL WEARING BLACK! haha

Thanks for reading this post, guys :) Now, I've got to run to class.

-jennie