Change.

Usually, I don't openly share that I'm not a fan of change. I mean, if it betters the situation, I find change to be a good thing. However, my experiences with change have usually sucked. About 2 years ago now, my parents separated, my senior pastor left our church, and my youth pastor left. All within 3 months of each other. BAM, BAM, BAM, 2 of my major supports had just fallen. I'd be lying if I said I was over it, because well, I'm not. I still hold a lot of hurt from that experience. After dealing with all of that, change just freaks me out. Currently, I am attending an International Youth Convention in Florida, and my mind won't stop flipping to the past. My youth group now is a sad, pitiful shadow of the past. We let the change break us. I often wonder why God allowed all that to happen, and what would the youth be today if we actually trusted one another and trusted that God will take care of us. Change is a funny thing. You never really know it is coming until it is here. I talk a lot about living as if we know God. But now I wonder, does my youth as a whole interact like we know God? I don't see it anymore. This fact is not directed to any person, just to the group as a whole. I often miss what my youth used to be. We were close, and we truly loved one another. But as I look at the past, I realize that God does not mean for us to live it dwell in the past, but to live in the preset, and look forward to the future. Personally, I need to fix that about myself. I dwell too much. We need to move forward and change for the better. I have no idea why I wrote all of this, but I do want to challenge you. I challenge you to look at your life and see what needs to change. Do you dwell in what was, or what will be? Only you know. Change is inevitable, so embrace it. (Don't worry, I'm still talking to myself as well. These posts are getting depressing, I'll try to fix that :) )
love,
jennie

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